Baby,don't say goodbye.

2010-08-03T22:37:00.003+08:00

okaay. when was the last time i updated ? err. -__- have been very busy lately. life's kinda hectic nowadays. family,responsibilities,work,work and work. i spent most of my time there. i just wanna settle all the madafaking debts once and for all. Bro,am not trying to say that i don't feel appreciated by you but ur actions and words.. it made me feel as though im helping you out for nothing. seriously,nothing. i dunnoe where its leading,abang. haiish.

the boy has been supporting me all along. thanks,Jed. for being there. theres just too much to say.
and i dunnoe where to start and where to end. i shall start afresh with this blog.
till then.

2010-03-15T12:58:00.002+08:00

it'll be a week before i get to see you again,baby.have a safe trip to Thailand okayy.
will be looking forward for ur return. im gonna hug you till you suffocate ! rawr ! xD
sorry for not being able to send you off. have fun,GEMOK ! it'll be a lonely week for me. *long sigh* miss you loads,HAZWAN !

2010-02-20T03:20:00.002+08:00

Baby's belated birthday celebration as promised. Baby,i know u have to wait till so long before i get to give u this celebration. forgive me for that and forgive me for it was not a blast. i tried my best,Baby. nevertheless,i really hope u enjoyed yourself. =)
went to sentosa for Jeddie's 19th. settled down and had a nice swim. oh well. since we had the WHOLE pool, for ourself. sweeeeet or what ? HEH ! bla bla bla. spent quality time,strolling down the beach,hand in hand = WONDERFUL MOMENTS ! till gastric strikes at night. sighs.
it was written all over his face on how shagged he was that night. sadly,the pain got the better of me. pity this guy,sayang me too much,have to takecare of me and stay by my side. tell me,who would go around asking people if they have any gastric suppresants in the middle of the night just to ease the my pain ? who would make trips anywhere just to make me feel better? who would carry a frigging HEAVY and GIGANTIC me on his back when i can't walk due to the damn pain? who would entertain my tantrums when im in pain? who would just do all that damn things for me? well,this guy just did all of the above. and i swear,i was touched. tears aint enuff to describe how touched i was. thanks,Hazwan. for taking really good care of me. i appreciate all that. all of that. they say,'Love makes you mad.'. and here i am madly in love with you,Baby.
Yanie loves you more than you could ever love her. =) let's look forward for our 2nd year,Jeddie!
oh yes! ever had a girl who happens to be ur boyfriend's exgf who's still pinning hopes on ur boyfriend for the past fucking 5 years eventhough she knew u both led sucha happy life together? oh,come on. tell me i sounds like a bitch now. or whatever u call it. she must be jealous big time,like totally ! PFFT. FYL.

tadaas. I LOVE MY JED.

2010-02-03T01:03:00.003+08:00

have been financially unsound lately,sadly. am trying my very best to scrimp and save.
shall not elaborate why. haaaaiiiizzzzz.
been busy with work the past few days. finally,its my off tomorrow. will be heading down to ITE HQ with Jed. after that,entah ? haha. harap2 dia akan bawak aku keluar jalan2 . its been long since we really went out. seriously. *prays hard* HAHA. k. aku tak malu. aku tau.

moksain ! dengar2 daa nak kua kan 125 ? haha. finally. bertahun lepas,confident bilang aku, 'jangan terpranjat lau u dengar 125 perah2 kat bwh blok u.'. lets wait and see. haha.
niway. congrats yerr. tercapai jugak impian mu.
yang aku nii. tak teramek2 BTT siiol. haha. pecaah.PDKs,amacam? jadii per seoul garden? 50% off nii. lambat2 nanti terlepas kang. k bye.

2010-01-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO YOU,SWEETHEART ! =))

sadly, on this very special day of yours,we're unable to meet. due to our clash in schedules. not to worry,i'll make it up to you,baby. look forward to our 2nd's anni cum ur belated birthday partaay ! i promise you its gonna be a blast,sweetheart.
*winks*

me wish you a life full of happiness, smoga dimurahkan rezeki, di panjangkan umur and smoga sihat2 slalu. OH ! not to worry. i'll be there right by ur side through ur journey of life to takecare of you. very good care. HEH ! lifetime warranty,baby ! susaaa dapat oii. haha.

taknak banyak story dulu uhh. wait till the party,k love.
heh heh heh.

anyhoos,am getting rather anxious for the interview. =(
tadaass ! =)

2010-01-23T02:05:00.005+08:00

firstly,i would like to talk about my traineeship. heh !
happy perr. i applied for a traineeship with ITE. some sort mcm schooling while working gituu ahhs. cuba nasib perr yanie. HAHA. hopefully this thinggy would be a success. insyaallah. *prays hard* i have to start somewhere for my future. right ? =))

workplace is turning into a hellshiit. all due to that pariak maha keling !! lu bikin gua panaas uhh pariak ! lu standby. wa mestii pecah sama lu uhh. *yanie step fanatic seminit*
ggrrrrr!

psst! psst! nieza suro uatkan blog uhhs. activate,girlfriends !
chalo beteh ! =))

2010-01-16T19:58:00.002+08:00

i promise ur 19th's gonna be a blast,sweerheart. stay tuned ! *winks*

2010-01-15T19:27:00.000+08:00

aku swear lazy nak die to update. biar this blog tangkap dust. k bye. =))

2009-12-21T01:21:00.004+08:00

pics above were on 18th night. tagged Jed to Vibes@Nova.

and above is tak ingat bilerr. haha. have been busy working these few days.
that explains the lack of updates. asal aku aderr feel nak blog jekk, mesti nii miss period nak singgah. siiyaal uhhs ! sumpah,aku lapar. =(
ehh ! can't wait for countdown. heh. *kening naek2*

2009-11-27T01:18:00.002+08:00

am dangerously in love with yaa.

its when you look back and reflect,then realised how wonderful life has been.
crap much ? nahh~ planning to go pandan city with the fam this monday.
oh ! when was the last time i shopped ? *inserts sad face*
can't waiiittt !!
i cinta the boyfriend sangat2. geeee~ =D

current earcandy:use somebody by kings of leon. =))

2009-11-23T01:28:00.005+08:00

2006

2007

2008

2009

sometimes,it's nice to look back. look how much we've grown,baby. =)

the one who always make me smile and laugh and sad and cry.
the one who makes me feels special and loved avery single time.
the one who always like to step cute even when he's already so cute.
the one who is always difficult to shop for pants due to his butt size.
the one who never fails to call me every single day.
the one who i love to snuggle with.
the one who teaches me how to play bowling.
the one who always blames himself eventhough i'm at fault.
the one who melts me everytime he starts being sweet.
the one who will run miles just to see me.
the one who sang me the sweetest lullaby ever.
the one who was willing to wait for me.
the one who is mine now and will always be mine.
the one whom i love too much,i swear.

cos' u're the only one,Muhammad Hazwan.

myself has been good these days except that i was down with fever for a few days
and ms period is here to accompany me for a week or less.
time spent with the boy has been so limited due to each other's responsibility.
nevertheless,we still pulled through. =))
can't wait for payday! will be meeting gendood ! yay-ness. after so long ehh,gendood.
HAH! planning to enrol by end of the month. insyaallah. =)
webcam-ing with the boy while typing all these. heh. having two windows side by side.
i sooo lurve it. looking at his face and doing this. PFFT. it felt so..
okayy. shaadup ! haha. thats all for now.
nights people! off to staring at him. HEH! tell me i'm sick.

2009-11-14T00:30:00.001+08:00

not even a birthday wish.
assumptions was all i got. thanks for this. it made my day.
thanks.

2009-11-06T04:37:00.000+08:00

'no dreams can compare to the reality i have with you.'

there are so many things in my mind now. thinking about you alone & also us. we used to show the world how love can make the world go round. but now. you have no idea how much your love have changed me. i always carry you around in my heart,wherever i go. this love is sick. got me insane. i cant live without you. i love you.
somebody,save me please. my mind is all messed up now. i've got no one to turn to.
imma messed up biitch. these tears,sure do fall. its crazy,i swear.

someone,save me please !
i want us. im feeling weak. so weak. Lil Angel,guide me,will you? ='(
gendood !!! where are you ? =((

ps i love Hazwan. period.

2009-11-06T04:15:00.004+08:00

2009-11-03T15:29:00.003+08:00

"being honest is difficult,ain't it?"

gastritis misses me too much that it decided to drop by last night. -__- was suffering through the night and only had my sleep around 8am. PFFT. yeaa. everybody was sleeping soundly. nobody gives it a damn nimore. they're used to it.
the ex dropped by at my workplace lastnight with the fam. -__- the mum said,'faz bilang yang yanie keje sini. since nga jalan2 kat sini,kita singgah la nak tengok yanie.'
i was trying to control my smile at that time. damn faz ! lu standby! haha. =))
the ex said,'cck keciik. lau faz tak bilang pon,mane2 i leh carik u laa.'
oh yeaah? PFFT.

2009-11-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

"since the day that we met Boy,i've never had anyone make me feel this way. and my heart was so sure that it wants to be with you.till the end of life."

dad started his night shift for a week yesternight. which means he'll be in the house in the afternoon. grr. therefore,no waking up in the afternoon for me. T.T oh nevermind,Yanie. it's only for a week. heh ! =))

oh! did i tell you how sweet the boy is nowadays? he'll buy me food and my daily intake of milk tea and send it to me right in the store without telling me anything?
boy,thanks much for that. i know i didnt express how thankful i was at that time as it was kinda busy at work. but u know,deep down,i was really touched, again,thanks. you're suchaa sweetheart. =))

oh yaa. dad is planning to shift house again when i've only stayed in the current house for like 2 yrs? T.T oh daad~ whatever it is.

i love Hazwan.
ok bye. =)

2009-10-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

an old old old pic of us. HAHA.

i super super super ♥ todayy. cos its well spent with the Boy ! =))
me love ! its been a week since we last met. misses much yaaw. heh ! had lucnh and all.
for all i know,i was smiling the whole of today. thank you much much Hazwan. *smiles widely*
haha. i cant stop laughing abt the hair cut thinggy ahh. dragged the boy to the barber at interchange cos his hair was way too long for me aredii.

and he was like,"taknak ahh. i taknak. erm.. laen kali la k?" me being me, tak suka delay things.
and so,we went in. during the whole time while the hairstylist was cutting his hair, he was giving me the 'equal' face. -____-
HAHAHAHA. and the result just couldnt stop me from laughing like mad. HAHAHA!!
the boy looks like sucha goody goody mummy's boy. HAHHAHA!
eyy sexayy,u dare tell me im sucha a bad gf? u dare?? HAHAHA.
sayang u much2 laa,gemokk.

oh yes,SEZAIRI's still in !! therefore...
im still gonna watch singapore idol ! wee~ =))

till then.

thanks for the day, ♥.
i ♥ you,always.

2009-10-25T02:04:00.002+08:00

I WANT CHOCOLATES AND COKE ! ! !
A R G H ! ! !
'ms period',why are you torturing me with this cravings? like as if those cramps ain't enuff.
*sobs*

and i have to work in 4 hrs time. better off to sleep now. nights.
oh ! i miss gemok like want to die(a direct translation of macam-nak-mampos).

k bye.

2009-10-24T02:19:00.003+08:00

'miss period' will be dropping by soon for a week or less.
she's torturing me with all the cramps and the constant feeling of thirst. urrgh !
nevertheless,im still able to keep up with the mood swiings okayy. =))
sweet me. HEH ! =P spent the whole day of today rotting at home. NOT ! i did helped mum with the housework. and there she was shaking her legs,playing PSP. yes,mum plays PSP. -__-
i aint a 'anak-dara-takle-harap' okayy. PFFT.

will be working in the afternoon tmrw. the boy's working tonight till tmrw morning. ain't sure when i'll get to see him next. i S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y don't wish to tire him. seeing him going from school to home to work to home to school and blablabla really saddens me.
please give ur body a break,sweetheart. and i hope we'll get to meet soon. SOON okayy sayang. =))

oh ! sis and bro in law text-ed me asking me if im going out on my bday and of course,i said no. sad kan. no plans for bday. =( so.... they text-ed me again saying that they've booked a pit at changi(i know. of all places.-__-) for me. aren't they sweet? sis and bro in law has been my greatest fren and i love them mucch! =)) hmm. will see how the pit goes laa. aint really looking forward to bday yaaw.

till then! toodles~
oh wait, i miss Hazwan ! =(
ok BYE.

2009-10-21T00:06:00.005+08:00

Dear SexyLove,
at times the day seemed so long,i thought i'd never make it through,
then suddenly,out of a dream,i have met someone like you.
i had locked up all my feelings and i'd thrown away the key,
until your heart spoke a thousand words i knew were meant to be.
when times turned rough and lonely,and despair fell upon my face,
you comforted me and kept me safe in that loving special place.
i could speak of a thousand promises or even bet my very soul,
the rest of my life,i'll be touched with a feeling no one can control.
fate,destiny or magic may be the reason that we met,
but all i know is the days with you i never will forget.
until the day i found you i never knew a love so true,
but from today till eternity i swear i'll be loving you !

i ♥ you,Muhammad Hazwan.

eyy sexaay,you know im missing u right ? *inserts sad face*
u better bring me out tomorrow ahh! for all i care. hmph.
work was very fun with the kecoh bunch of people. except for that 'jubo ayam'.
kau memang macam siiak dan takder adat okayy. ergh.
nurul, the love u had for ur son,can't be explain in words. i am happy for you girl.
yes,people pandang rendah but u held ur head up high. you raawk,babe. =))
and yes,i miss you a hell loads,little angel.i miss you. RIP.

niights,people.

2009-10-17T02:18:00.002+08:00

work was VERY fun just now. except for the early2 part. cos that mulot jubo ayam was there.
okayy. i AM bad kalau part kutok2 orang. she's not that bad laa. except for the fact that mulot dia cam jubo ayam. pembawa budak tak? since she's pregnant.haha ! =))
WORLD IS INDEED VERY SMALL. haha. why did i say that? my colleague today was my member peh bini. PFFT. ape lagii! kecoh ahh satu kedai. haha. lu gerek dohh. =))
will be on standby for sunday. tmrw'll be my off. house-cleaning!! and,insyaallah,i'll drop by k baby. the boy daa sound," bila nak dapat massage nii?? badan da penat.saket. TAO!" elehhh.
nanti i datang,i urut badan u.i masak kan u.i suapkan u. k?? hmphhh !
okayylaa. he pamper me moooore ! ME LURRVE !! =))

and 'unknown',if you happen to drop by this blog of mine, here's for you.
i am not those typical girlfriend who will 'melenting' lau ada pompan contact/tag/msg the boy.
i trust my boyfriend. alhamdullilah,everything is so fine between us.
i know you. dun ask me how. it just happen. thanks for the advices. my boy knows how to take GOOD care of himself. he doesn't need constant reminder. maybe,instead, u can keep reminding ur BF to take good care of himself rather than my boy? =))
sorry if i sounds harsh. i meant well. thanks for the care and concern anywayys yaaw. =))
oh yes. no worries. keep the friendship going on~ =))

lastly,
I MISS MUHAMMAD HAZWAN MUCH2 ! !

2009-10-16T15:31:00.003+08:00

will be heading to work in an hour time.so,before that lets do some blogging. =))
yesterday's work was awesome. except for the part where those old ahpeks and nyonyas asked me about those weird2 medicine. -__- PFFT.
one even came into the shop and asked me,"i've been having diarrhea for the past few days ah. what medicine shud i take??" felt like saying,"eat POH-CHAI pills laa uncle!".
pfftt. if only i was a nurse. ehh ! that used to be my dream okay.sadly,it can't be a reality cos' i am SO afraid of needles. =(

jalan-ed2 at tekka and mustafa centre last night with the fam.
the decors were pretty! =) but the smell... ermm.. heh! birthday's coming pretty soon.
no plans. yet! am broke. so,i dun mind locking myself in this cosy room of mine and sleep the whole day! =)) and yes,to those yang nak ajak me 'party hard' on my legal day,i have to say, that ain't me. =)))

the boy is out the WHOLE day of today. after school,he'll be working till the next day.
kesian kau,gemook! =) hopefully i'll get to meet him tmrw. i rindu u taw! HAHA. =)

2009-10-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

just came back from baby's homiie. had dinner then and watched s'pore idol there.
sezairi's still in therefore,i'll continue watching it. =))
oh boyfriend,be jealous. =)) day was well spent with the Boy. gemook,whatever i did,it was for our happiness. i'm sorry for being quite hot-headed. dun think too much k,sayaang.
luurrrvvveee my gemook much2 ! =))
and his mum daa sound him to quit working. his body seriously needs a rest.
he's been rushing here and there so much hence, resulting in lacking of rest. u ain't a robot,baby. oh well,even a robot needs a rest. u promised me u'll ask for a transfer by end of this month.
be a man of ur word baby. or else! hmmmph.

work has been good so far. hopefully it'll remain that way. =))
it's supposed to be my off tmrw but was called last minute to work in the morning.
i don't mind since i have nothiing on. heh. =)) oh yes,i LOST my bankbook !! =(
shhiittts laa. how to get my pay ?? PFFFT.

sidetraack, my family hasnt been going out as a WHOLE for some time. should i plan one since lil siblings will be haviing a week of holiday?hmmm.
oh waiit ! NOT ! everyone's being a scrooge right now. trying to save every cents.
well,economy is bad. can't help it. will plan one when its 'salary season'. haha.

till then. adiios.
I SAYANG MUHAMMAD HAZWAN ! =))))

2009-10-12T14:23:00.003+08:00

gondrong pehh nana ! she cartoon-ed me and the results is this. *points upwards*
SEK PERRR??!!
tapii takperr. atleast aku KURUS. hahaha. =))
had an interview yesterday @ *fill in the blank*. turned out well. cos i'll be starting work tomorrow!! =)) *shivers* haha. need to save lotsa money for enrolment. can't wait ! can't wait !
went to afiq's homiie after the interview. k wait. imagine me wearing kebaya to the interview. haha. maner tak gatal si manager tuu. mata berlari2 ! hmph.
back to story. had brunch(breakfast+lunch) at his house. bebual2 kosong.
nami and dam had to go,the boy,me and kuali decided to make a move too. and off to vivo. with the kebaya ! sampai sanerr jek ape lagii. beli baju ahh! kat mango siow.tsk. tsk.tsk.
had dinner at Banquet. fiq bought his shoes. and home sweet home.

eyy,Gemook! u promised me a movie date this wed ahh. ingaat ehhs!
sayang kau laa gemook. =))

2009-10-11T12:02:00.004+08:00

a very big big big YAY-NESS !! =)
happy luhh sangat2. kan NANA?
hahaha.

will be raya-ing at afiq's homiie today.
with the Boy,kuali,nami and dam.
till then!

2009-10-09T17:05:00.003+08:00

many2 thanks NANA for renovating my blog within a short period of time.
thanks ehh,bacen. =) aku sayang kau laa.
haha.
the Boy is still in school and will be working at night till the next morning.
will be at home the whole of today.

2009-10-08T19:22:00.003+08:00

gym-ed with the Boy yesterday. haha.
kecoh. he kept on ranting,'ni gym eh. takde time untok nak glamour2. jgn nak step senyum2.'
HAHAHA. sayang kau soraang laa bacen ! =)

birthday coming in a month time.
so NOT eager to be legal ahh. hmmph !
hmm. nothing much to update ahh. tu jeekk. haha.
k BYE. =)

2009-10-07T00:50:00.001+08:00

okayy.
the blog is messed up aredii.
aku give up ahh dohh !! grrrsss !

p.s NANA. telinga aku agiik bebuluwwwww !! HAHAHA.

2009-10-03T23:45:00.001+08:00

2009-10-02T02:09:00.002+08:00

'be my Clyde and i'll be your Bonnie,baby'

heyy people !
insomnia strikes. =(
have been helping mum around with housework. ermm. okay. not much. PFFT.
will think of finding another job later. focusing on my responsibilities as a sister first.
tough decision though.*long sigh* sad sangat2 to leave job.
no income. but.. nehmind.
have been very sick lately.on and off fever. =(

sidetraack~
the boy has been working lately. therefore,not much time spent with him.
rindu him much2. still head over heels with him though it has been nearly 4yrs of kenalan?
PFFT much. small conflicts here and there. but! we're strong enuff.
i love you banyak2 laa,saayaang ! =) please hold on dear.
i know its been tough having to spent lesser time with each other.
please hold on,baby.
those little fights,those step merajok,those not being able to understand and those whatever it is,you know i still love you the same,baby. i do.
we each have our responsibilities,B.

will be jalan raya-ing with the Boy,syafiq,nami,saddam,afiqah&partner and tak tau saper agiik tmrw.
hmm. dun rilii feel the vibe of raya but lets just go with the flow.
hope it'll go well. =)

till then. takecare,people. =)

2009-09-29T00:16:00.004+08:00

the perfect definition of SEXAAYY,HOTNESS annnddd...
super DELICIOUS !

2009-09-27T23:53:00.002+08:00

SICK and TIRED.

2009-09-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

as days goes byy~
i felt as though we're getting more attached.
that's a good thing ain't it? ^_^ me lovee !
BF fetched me after work at HFC and we proceeded to cck together as he'll be breaking fast at his grandparent's place. after buka, we decided to meet at my void deck.
we seize every oppurtunity we had to spent time together as this RARELY haapen.
sadd kann. tapi tetap sayang banyak2. haha. okay shaadaap.
back to story.
met at the void deck,gave him some testers of the kueh which i made earlier on.(tell u,the kueh ahh u campak at the tembok oso never pecah) kool kan? -____-"
tuu laa. kueh tak menjadi. PFFT !
BF,being himself,pon telan jekk tuu kueh saying that its really nice.
i know u were lying there. =))
jalan2-ed and saw noqman and syahir.
lepak-ed for a while. KECOOHHSSS !! hahaha. felt odd there but for sure,i can't stop laughing at their nonsense.HAHA.
made a move around 11.30pm. BF sent me home and off he goes to lakeside.
ohhh BF,u're getting sweeter and sweeter..i swear. ME LOVEE ! =DD

2009-09-02T01:13:00.001+08:00

thats the new hair. xD
nice in pic,sucks in real life.
ergggggghhhh !
regret? nahhhh. =)

geylang at night with LOVE and sayanngs on thurs. =)

2009-08-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday was well spent with Love.
trained to bugis,reach there around 5.30 and decided to jalan2 at arab street as we planned to break-fast at ZAM-ZAM. haha.
we sat there as early as 6 pm. takot takde tempat.KIASU. -__-
afterwhich,we had no plan. nampak building ILUMA.
surveyed there. upon reaching the upper level, we were like.. 'wahhhhh.cool nyerr.'
HAHA. decided to catch FINAL DESTINATION 3-D !
FANTASTIC.SUPERB.THRILLING. the movie deserves all the good words.
haha. i enjoyed yesterday so much. DUHH !
its nearly 2 weeks since i saw him perr. ape lagi !
haha. thanks,Love. though time spent was rather short.

am always yours. and,haappy belated 18 monthsary,LOVE. =)

2009-08-28T01:10:00.003+08:00

please take good care of your health sis.
hope you're doing well.
I MISS YOU.

im tired. im shagged.
i need the strength to pull me up.
*sobs*

2009-08-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

thanks,my dearest Hazwan for this pic. *hugs tightly* =)

okayy. i'm very jealous.
majority has gotten their Raya outfits.
*sobs*
i dun even know what to wear. *long sigh*
everyone's so excited about the coming Raya. somehow,i dun feel like it.
i don't know why. but its just so different this year.
the feeling of excitement? not even a bit.
sis has shifted house,hence decreasing the crowd we used to have in this house.
urrrghhhh !

i AM so not looking forward to Raya.
period !

2009-08-22T00:27:00.001+08:00

tell me i'm useless.but,
do you know how much i love you,boy?

2009-08-17T22:52:00.002+08:00

CB laa !
i still cant upload pics.
dammit. blogger oh blogger. please don't do this to me. =(
FB's worst. that one is sucha basket ah. i cant upload pictures,i cant do quizes,
i cant play applications and basically,i just cant do anything !
people,how do you feel?
*swears and curses*

sidetrack~
have been really tied up with work reason being that HARI RAYA is coming pretty soon.
fasting month is pretty soon. i rilii hope i get to fast on the first day. *prays hard*
else,i wont have the courage to do so for the month. HAHA !

lately,i've been thinking.
why can't i just be like any other teenagers enjoying every moment of their teenage life.
i feel so ADULT.
okayy. how shud i explain this. its just.. too heavy for me.
supporting myself. house bills. family. etc.
thruth is,i'm tired. i need a break,Daddy. pleasse. =(
i feel so guilty whenever i dun have time for my siblings.
and when they call me early in the morning when im at work,crying, cos i didnt have the time to coach their homeworks.
they fell asleep waiting for me to reach home from work.
i feel frigging guilty. i really DO.
gosh. time spent with them is just too little. a sister i am. *long sigh*
since the day elder sis move out,this house is getting really quiet.
i wonder how the fasting month will be.
i'll try to manage my time well,MUM. i'll try.
ILOVEMYFAMILY.

and Hazwan,
ILOVEYOU too.
IMISSYOU HELL LOADS !
=(
you've been sucha sweet boyfriend,Love.
thank you so so much for bringing happiness in this life of mine.
again,ILY ! =)

this post goes out to the MOST important people in my life.
iLOVEthem.
God bless. nights people. takecare me.

2009-08-10T23:29:00.001+08:00

BLOGGER IS GETTING ON MY NERVES !! F*** !

2009-08-04T23:33:00.001+08:00

BELLE ! SHALL WE BUY A WEBCAM ?
CEPAT ! CEPAT ! I WANT ITT PRETTY SOON. =)

2009-08-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

blogger is getting more and more suck-ier.ergh!
damn luhhs!
anyhoos~ i need a webcam! i mean,i want itt. tak sabarr. =(
nana,just you wait! hmph. HAHA.

sidetrack~
yesterday was well spent.
went to a sdare's kenduri in the afternoon. afterwhich,i'd no plans. at all!
love went job-hunting with kuali. GAYSHIT. =)
suddenly,received a call from Belle saying she's at town with Fatin and..
Love and kuali. -______-
they terserempak at there. ape lagi!
dengan pantas,i cabot from the kenduri and met them at Far East.
see girls.how jiwa i am with you. *winks*
one word to describe,FUN!.
except the walking part uhh. berpeloh anjing aku dibuatnyerr. =(
belle.belle. i love the fact that we still can read each other's mind. HAHA! =)
kecooohhhhs !
last but not least, FACEBOOK is sucking too. ergggh! macam-macam ada!

till then. sayang kamu,Hazwan!

2009-07-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

thanks for the day spent,Hazwan Love.
appreciate it so so much.
okayy. my hair is all black now. thanks,love. for dying the bloody frizzy hair for me and ended up
dirtying ur own pants.PFFT.
had late lunch at Lot 1. belle text-ed me,saying that she wanted to meet.
was all eager actually,konon nya dapat jumpa hariz laa tuu. HAHA.
but since my relatives are coming,i've to reject the meet-up. =(
Sorry,darling. next time k. =)
waiting for love to reach home now.
anyways,thanks so so so much for the day spent sayaang. appreciate banyak2.
i can't forget the moment when we pretended to be acquintance towards each other.HAHA.
loving you always,B. again,happy 17th monthsary. =)

2009-07-29T03:13:00.000+08:00

little angel,i can't stop thinking about you.
i don't know why. you've been appearing in my mind lately.
as if,you were trying to tell me something. *weeps*
please.show me the way,baby. i love you and have always do.
you're always in me,sayang. may ALLAH watch over you. Amin.

*weeps*weeps*weeps*

2009-07-29T00:46:00.002+08:00

CINTA,happy 17th monthsary to you.

life has been so wonderful with you by my side.
i'm glad we've made it this far. and Insyaallah,we'll make this love last forever,B.
i feel so blessed.
i will stay with you.
Right by your side,through it all.
and i'll stay with you.
through all the ups and down.
and i'm so so so proud to say,
I LOVE YOU,MUHAMMAD HAZWAN B SAPUAN!
very very very very much with all of my heart.
i'm glad i'm yours and that you're all mine. =)
i'm praying real hard that i'll get to see you tomorrow,B.

anyhoos~
i felt damn malu tadi as i was on my way back home.slept in the bus and terlajak. HELL!grrrs.
i dunnow why but i really feel like saying this,
i love my family though these past few days things have not been doing good for us.
when things go wrong,only then will you realise how much you treasure them.
sorry mum. sorry dad.ILY.
nights people.

again,
I LOVE YOU banyak2 laaa,Hazwan Love. =)

2009-07-27T00:13:00.003+08:00

all who made it. HARIZ's 1st birthday party at Henderson park was more of like ex-regenite's reunion seyy! haha. anyhoo~ it was a great one.
thanks loads to Belle for making it happen. role of the day, Jed and Afiq the fire starters. Jap was part of the fire starters in the first place BUT! once the fire gets bigger,he decided to resign. so much for him being a fire-fighter! tak blei harap langsong ! da tuu,dudok one corner,mencekik jek keje. grrs. saddam the tukang masak and sapu-sapu minyak and honey on the hotdogs,crabsticks etc. yanie the tukang amek air for the fire starters and fanning them. =) ur welcome. nana and namirah the makcik gossips! haha. it was a hell loads of fun ahh.
BELLE,if you were to ever read this post,
the message i sent you that night,i dunnoe why i was trying hard to put myself in your shoes. bearing all those responsibilities.
i dunnoe why. be strong,woman. you ARE. i'm always here for you,darling. and i can see those sadness in your face.
i love you. i love Hariz. =)

JED ! saya sayang kamu banyak2 laa. 2 more days,B. =)
nights people.=)

2009-07-25T02:15:00.002+08:00

holding on~

you'll always be a part of me,sweetheart.

2009-07-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

everything is going against me. i repeat,everything. and i dun even know how it all started.
sighs. things are getting out of hand. all i could do was to shut myself behind the closed doors.
i know. i know i'm being such a coward.yes,i am! im feeling so weak.

and you, i didnt know whats with the sudden temper.i didnt know how everything went so wrong. i was so clueless. i was so lost.i've never felt suffocated with you. PERIOD. i apologise for being such a bitch. i appreciate your care and concern. very much. tell me straight in the face the next time you dun like me doing certain things. dun leave me having LOADS of question marks in my head. and having me admitting that it was ALL my fault at the end of the day. these things just keep repeating. i dun enjoy this,sweetheart. not even a bit.sorry for betraying ur trust.

I.HAVE.ALWAYS.LOVED.YOU.
nights,people. takecare me.

darls,i'll upload the pics as soon as i can k. sorry.

2009-07-19T21:03:00.001+08:00

*i feel safe in here*

2009-07-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

i was walking back home when....
jeng jeng jeng!
as i reached my viod deck. i heard a LOUD commotion going on.

it came from my neighbours.didnt gave a damn about it,couldnt care as i was too tired from work.
got home,freshen up and tuck-ed into late night dinner.
skalii, bila nga syiok abes enjoying the food, wahh.
the commotion got louder. this time,everybody shouting.
all of a sudden,this feeling of kaypoh-ness fills me. -__-
looked down from the window and saw 2 police car alr.
plus ! a handcuffed kid.
kaypoh peh kaypoh,i go ask la my neighbour what happened.
she replied,'THAT PERVERT STOLE MY UNDIES!'
WTHEEEEELLLLLLLLLLL!
seluardalam kes mak2 nyerr seyy. cum'on laa,pervert.
i bet u got no taste. if u stole her g-string,i still can understand that u're a psychotic.
PFFT.
i seriously dunnoe what that pervert is trying to prove or rather what was he thinking of when did that stupid crime.
in the end,he got caught and was brought away by the police.
pity you laa,boy. your mother must be VERY sad.
haha.

enuff said. i'm tired.

boyfriend, i miss you very very very much !

I LOVE YOU.

2009-07-11T00:09:00.001+08:00

HAZWAN, you're just too sweet !
i love you banyak-banyak !
=)

p.s i fell so safe in your arms,B. =)

2009-07-07T21:47:00.001+08:00

asshole.i'm getting really pissed off with BLOGGER.
i still cant upload pictures. and hell. i don't know why.
dammit.this results in me being lazy to update.
peace.

2009-06-30T13:54:00.004+08:00

F*** !

why cannot upload pictures ?!?!
stupid blog.
nevermind. forget it.

meeting my BABES in 2 hours time.

(when im so sick)

2009-06-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

to my pillar of strength,

you've never failed to brighten up this life of mine,bringing smiles to this face and most importantly, loving me so deeply.

you were there for me through thick and thin.
wiping those tears and brought those laughters.
GOD knows how much i treasure you.

happy 16th to you.

I LOVE YOU,HAZWAN.
and will always do,B.

nights,everyone. with love.

2009-06-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

i feel so weak. very weak.

im losing my mind. im going crazy.

im..... *long sigh*

one after one.
everything is going against me.

i admit, i aint strong.

and i dun feel like blogging anymore.

FOR NOW.

takecare people. takecare yanie.

2009-06-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

LIFE's A BEACH was awesome!
when its spent with Love. =)
enjoyed itt much though felt kinda tired after the party.
whats worst,was called for WORK at the last minute ! =(
damn. we missed the special K event lorr. T.T
we were in the water then. PFFT~
okayyy. will just post a short one.
my CAM is with Love. T.T
will update more when i get the pics from him.
okayy. nights.

p.s Thanks,Love. =)

2009-06-19T01:26:00.002+08:00

2009-06-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

3 days off.
i repeat, THREE days.
miracle.hard to get. bla bla bla.
and, dad's changing the plan. right when i've took the off when actually i can earn money?
ergh~ nehmind.
im cool. im cool.
so whats the plan here.
anyone asking me out? *kening naek2*

oh wait. for saturday, Love is saying,' LIFE'S A BEACH!'
haha~ sentosa?
here we go~

p.s missing you. . .

2009-06-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

SITI,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,DARLING !
haha ! bought you a lil something. with the quote
'a cute thang for tha cute one !' =)
but cannot upload the pics yett as you have not officially got it.
lau tak 'pecah dara'. hahaha !
sadly,you have to work the whole day.
*consoles*
best wishes to you okayy? ENJOY! *blow kisses*
till then,nights.
*yawn*

p.s my Love, am very sorry about just now. three words to say,
I LOVE YOU.

2009-06-16T22:11:00.003+08:00

hey.hey.hey. =)
love has just went back home.
met him after work and him,after school.
at Lot 1.go NTUC buy stuffs for work. haha. thanks,Love.
i know,the stuffs were damn heavy and you'were denying it so much.
again,thanks LOADS my Love. appreciate that. =)
thanks for coming,Hazwan Love.
okayyy.
dad's changing our plans of going to Malaysia this weekend when i took
my off already. sighssss.
till then. =)

p.s biie,i'm addicted to you ! (:

2009-06-14T01:23:00.003+08:00

was supposed to meet Nana and Belle tmrw after work. but.. in the end,Nana cant make itt. =( after a year,i bet we have LOADS of things to catch up on. for sure. nehmind. we'll plan for another dayy k,sayangss? =) day at work was....okayy laa. except for othe part which i have to handle customers who LOVE to make life difficult for others! sighs. die. have to reach earlier for work due to the faulty freezer and here i am still blogging. BACEN! im tired. im sleepy. goodbye,people.

p.s my love for you will never end. you'll always be a part of me,baby.

2009-06-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

-and i'll be right here waiting for you,my LOVE.-

its been a day. without him.
too many things happened today.
no matter how bad i need you here by my side,i kept telling myself to be strong.
for once,i know i can do this.
maybe im just being too emotional today. but..
if things are bound to happen,it will.
i have to accept it no matter how difficult/painful it is.
this feeling SUCKS. i've never wanted this.
thanks,NIEZA.
for making this day of my life a HELL one.
you want it this way? we'll have it this way.
u said,'da ludah,takkan jilat alek?' okayy.
can. accepted by me.
but let me tell you this. and i want to emphasis alot on this.
DON'T YOU EVER LOOK BACK ON LIFE AND REGRET,girl !
i know all this are happening due to your STUBBORNESS and your FCUKING ego!
hell,yeah. we'll see.
im not losing anything. but you ARE losing ur cousin who all this while tried to put you on the right track when you go wrong.tried to correct your mistakes.
tried to explain things you dun understand. gives you my advice when you need an opinion.
and the list goes on..
you've LOST me. and i mean it.
and the fact that we two have different personalities,remains.
people have eyes.they do.

NIEZA,accept the fact that things doesn't always happen the way you want it to.
remember that.
and,im wishing you the best in life.
again,you've LOST me.

P.S my LOVE,if you happen to read this post, don't you worry okay.
i'll be fine. maybe i'll just weep abit.cry abit.for im just any other human with feelings.
enjoy yourself,LOVE.you must be.
loving you,baby. always~

2009-06-12T01:00:00.003+08:00

i miss you,LOVE.
i know you'll be away for only 2 nights but..
i cant even imagine myself 2 seconds without you whats more,2 nights!
i'll pull through.(i think)
enjoy yourself,LOVE.
partaayyyy like a rockstarr! =)
till we meet. *hugs and kisses*

-now my loyalty will always be with you if you just promise me that you'll
stay real just like you are. you dont know how much you mean to me,baby-

2009-06-10T22:54:00.001+08:00

playing battle station currently.
see,Love? you got me addicted to it. PFFT.
thanks for the day spent,Hazwan Love. =)

the love of my life. will miss you.

2009-06-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

haha. she deleted the post. what the. no guts uhh,girl? PFFT! Hazwan Love is back from work alr. and im kinda sleepy. BUT! i wanna finish watching PS, I LOVE YOU first. HAPPY BIRTHDAY,lil' brother! must study hard okayy. and i love you. those screamings explains it. haha! =) oh yes. im getting impatient to meet Hazwan Love! =) missing you much!

2009-06-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

honestly,was lazy to blog today.
but then,suddenly!
came across 'HER' blog. read her most recent post and i couldnt stop laughing alr.
PFFT!
you're indeed CRAZY,girl.
3 words to say,
GET A LIFE,bitch! =)

missing my LOVE.=)

2009-06-08T00:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday was super FUN !
spent the day with Hazwan Love.nahh. i mean half the day.
spent the other half of the day fixing the STUPID miO tv with abang.
abang gave up.I gave up. everybody gave up. CB!
SINGTEL service is never good ! for sure! *fuming*
Love came in the late afternoon just to see me not shower-ed yett. pfft! haha.
waited for me to shower and siap2. sorry bout that,Love.
the actual plan was to go jalan2 at BUGIS. in the end,changed to having dinner at BOTAK JONES!
=)
and,the saddest thing was, both my cam and phone batt were DEAD!
urrgh! im pissed! =(
had our dinner and yes, we were VERY full!
for the first time(after nearly 4 years) im seeing him forcing food down his throat.
wahh. haha! pity him. he still had to finish my share.
PFFT.
jalan-ed2 at Cineleisure and decided to head home.
Love sent me home and then took the cab home as it was rather late already.
today was nothing but,WORK.
as usual. -__-
have to send lil brother to the dentist tomrw morning.
WHAT THE !
when was the last time i went to the dentist. *wonders*
hmm. waiting for Love to finish work.
till then! =)

and i couldn't bear to see you go,my love.

2009-06-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

i know its lame but...
i've FINALLY created a facebook! =)
and i'm still feling very 'VIRGIN' in there.
PFFT! -__-

talking to love.. =)

2009-06-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

FUCK!
WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BLOG?!
UURRRGGGHH!!!

2009-06-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

work was fine. continued form NUS to Paragon. bacen. =) my feet is itchy like HELL ! tell me why. =( am printing some work stuffs for makcik Siti. i skarang da jadi printer u kan? hmph ! *stick out tongue* oh yes. i have something to announce. my dear cousin, NIEZA, have officially gone MAD,CRAZY and blah blah blah. she's seriously out of her mind already. dunnoe wad has got into her. possesed maybe? hmm. praying hard that all this stupid childish thinggy that she has started will end soon. should i say, 'dream on,yanie!'. she's just stubborn. i know it won't end anytime soon. i know. i know. F*** ! *long sigh* i miss LOVE.
i suppose,i'll just end here. tomorrow will be an another day. PFFT! nights everyone! nights,my LOVE!

2009-06-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

im BACK! went to meet LOVE at CCK and he decided to go to BPP.
it has been long since we went there.
nothing unusual though. oh ya!
had MILO MCFLURRY! *slurps* (LOVE pronouce it as mcFLUFFY for i dunnoe why. =.=)
and we went to the arcade for a couple of games.
thanks LOVE. i know you were trying hard to cheer me up from that F***king miO tv.
appreciate that very much. just then when we were about to decide where to eat for dinner,mum text-ed me asking where we were and that the family will be having dinner at CCK park.
therefore,took the cab(pampering myself after getting my pay) there.
met the family and had dinner. went to Ten Mile after that. and it was there that i saw this board.*pointing down*
Love was laughing so loud that made mum so curious about what we were laughing about.
and yes,she saw it too. PFFT!

sent LOVE to his grandparent's place at TW after that and headed back home. and below are some random pictures taken. okayy. im really very sleepy alr. have to work the whole day tomorrow. *grin* sorry to make you wait,LOVE. i'm done blogging. we can go to sleep now okayy? =) till then !

baby.im back here.

2009-06-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

finally,got my internet fixed with the hard earned money. phew!
but the miO tv is getting on my nerves.
i swear. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
perhaps i'm just stressing myself. sighs.
have to rush now. meeting LOVE at Lot 1.
will be back for a very long post. i suppose. till then.

DeaD

2009-04-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

wahh ! great ! it's been nearly 3 mths since
i last updated. have been busy. sighs.
but life has been great though. thanks to all loved ones.
BF has been great in making every moment spent an unforgetable one.
thanks,dearest.
nothing much to say then. tadas ! =)

2009-02-07T02:56:00.000+08:00

terrible sorry for the sudden disappearance.
i swear i didnt mean to do this.

in fact,i miss blogging. T.T
im trying hard to find the time to do so and i'll just keep trying.
currently VERY busy with work.
will update more soon. MAYBE.
loves.nights.

2008-12-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

boohoo ! (:
today is fine.
yesterday was awesome !
since i have nothing much to say about today,im gonna blog about ystrdy then.
planned with BF to have a picnic at sentosa. wee~
woke up at 8am to cook spaghetti,fried rice and some puffs. well,BF is a big eater. haha!
no offence,love. (: meeting point=south view bustop. it was drizzling for half a day. grrs!
that didn't spoils our plan though. reached there first and waited for him.
tiba2 ! *a smooch on the kiss from the back* haha!
confirm its BF. the moment i saw him,ape lagii.
peluk maha peluk laars. missed him too much. seminggu tak jumpe seyy!
then,off we went to sentosa by bus.

we went to tanjong beach as..
siloso beach=confirm lots of sampah ! due to ZOUKoUT the previous day.
palawan beach=crowded with banglas! haha.
reached there,picked a spot and laid the mat. (:
let BF taste my cookings. he said,'sedaap!'. and a minute later,finished the food.
fast game ! hopefully,it is nice. hmms. chatted and sat for awhile before going into the water!
super cold ! haha. a couple(i think) on our left was super funny! haha!
the guy,a photorapher,was in his bermudas and kemeja. the girl,in her YELLOW bikini.
haha! he took LOADS of pics of the girl. sampai terbaring2 kat atas sand and terpanjat2 pokok.
haha! kecohs ! we laughed and laughed and laughed.. haha!
we didn't stay in the water for long. BF cannot tahan the coldness alr.
haha. cute laa dier. we showered at the open shower. helped each another press the 'whatsoever' so that the water will come out while the other is showering. haha.
changed. then took the train back. home sweet home! (:
thank you so much for the day spent,love !

some pics taken..(:
BF step 'suntanning'. haha!

haha! muka nyerr !! haha. it was candid for him.

eating .

that's all ! again,thanks,BF ! (:
till we meet again. oh yes. hafriz is aking me to organize an outing.
alaahai. kamu pulak lerrs. to syafiq or aida.. ideas ? plan something,people!
haha. (: can't wait for us to gather again.
till then,goodbye ! (:

2008-12-11T12:50:00.000+08:00

i swear i'm bored. so i did this dumb shit thinggy. haha!

TECHNOLOGY.

What is your wallpaper on your computer?
Mitsubishi's evolution 10 car. pfft !

How many television do you have in your house?
*counting* 5 !

Are you right-handed or left handed?
right handed.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
erm.haha. shit ?

What is the last item you lifted?
this lappy ?

Have you ever been knocked down?
Nope.

BULLSHITOLOGY.

If it were possible,would you want to know the day that you will die??
no,please.

If you could change your name,what would you change it to?
im super happy with the current name.i dun see d nid 2 change it.(:

What colour would you think looks best on you?
BLACK ! (:

Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
Heh. heh. heh. LOL!

DAREOLOGY.

Would you kiss a member of a same sex for $100?
yeaaaahh !

Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
HELL NO !

Would you never blog again for $50,000?
sure thang ! (:

Would you posed naked in a magazine for $250,000?
nope. body ain't hot.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
omg. i wish i cud even have a teaspoon of it.

Would you,without fear of punishment,take a human life for $1,000,000?
duhh ! of cos not. crazy!

DUMBOLOGY.

What is in your left pocket?
empty.

Is Napoleon Dymainte actually a good film?
what the hell is that? movie? nahh. tak penaa dgr.

Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
both yes.

How many pairs of flip-flops did you own?
3 ?

Last body who texted you?
Hazwan love. (:

Last person who called you?
Hazwan love. (:

Person you hugged?
Hazwan love. (:

FAVOURITOLOGY!

Number?
8

Season?
autumn shud be fine i think. haha!

Colour?
blackk & white. + orange too!

CURRENTOLOGY.

Missing someone?
very much !

Mood?
bored. T.T

Listening to?
Barney's song coming out from the tv lil bro's watching.

Watching?
lappy's screen.

Worrying about?
my illness. T.T

Wearing?
Baleno's shirt w red shorts.

RANDOMOLOGY.

First place you went this morning?
toilet.

What can you not wait to do?
meet Hazwan love ! xD

Do you smile often?
maybe ?

Are you a friendly person?
let ppl judge. xD

Now that you answer all the questions, list three other people to complete this quiz. I tag...

1. anyone ?
2. anyone ?
3. anyone ?

2008-12-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

holla there ! (:
yea2.i finally updated. haha. aida da warn tuu.
haha ! no offence bebeh. have got nothing much to say actually.
have been staying at home lately. sighs. again,gastritis strikes. ergh !
wonder till when can i endure the pain. :(
oh yes ! i suddenly felt i am a football's fan. oh no !
this ain't happening right ? haha ! nahh! its only for the meantime i suppose.
just giving some support to our singapore heroes .
hmms. nothing else to say. im bored. so,till then!
goodbye! (:

i miss hazwan. (:

2008-12-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

hello ! (:

have got nothing much to say about today. first start seemed fine.
things grew sour when time pass by.. sighs. no offence to anyone who's reading this post.
please. don't vent ur anger on those whose not at fault. please. innocent people dun deserve that
attitude of yours. do reflect on it. im sorry. i cant help it. i have to let it out eventually.
i've got nothing against you. i swear. plus no hatred. (:
hmm. can't wait to meet boyfriend after work tmr ! finally ! yeaa~ *smile*
till then. nights.(:

2008-12-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

i miss BOYFRIEND ! ! !
hopefully we'll get to meet this sat. *prays hard*
its been raining the whole day. and its my off day today. cant even go out.
haiyaa. done with bedroom-keeping.ermm. that sounds kinda weird.
i mean tidying up of bedroom. wee~ (:
i've got nothing else to say. goodbye !

2008-12-02T17:01:00.000+08:00

im finally back !
no.no. i wont blame my new work for making me neglect my own blog.
its just that this lappy is getting on my nerves.
i dun wish to go on about that. hmms. so,new job huh ? haha.
im currently working at TCC(the coffee connoisseur) at Millenia Walk. superb ! haha.
was quite shocked when i got this job cos' when i went for the interview, there was like
super loads of people laa. didnt know im one of the lucky ones. wee~ (: i started this job on
the 26th of november. meaning,im so NEW okayy. (: i felt welcomed when i start i started working there.
thanks,people! tell u what,i lost my way seaching for the outlet on my first day. when the HR lady told me i was posted to millenia walk,i was like, "urmm. millenia walk? is that a place?" pfft ! stupid me !
colleagues there told me,im lucky to be posted there. and,i have no doubt about that fact.
serious ! (: thanks captain Kama for the guidance. i know its been tough on u to have a trainee like me.
i know. i know. ): it takes time,right ? hmph.oh yes,i feel like sharing something to those people taking trains.
firstly,no offence ahh! i understand morning is always the busy moment. you have to rush and push everyone in sight just to get into the bloody train. its understandable. its so common btween typical kiasu singaporeans.
looking at that situation,u're confirmed stucked in between super loads of people in the train. right ?
and when this happens,i HATE. i repeat,i HATE people talking on the phone throughout their journey.
oh my,i tell u. IRRITATING !! feel like punching their face. nice one ! fuck these peoples !
and also,the aunties. when they come in a bunch of groups. i think they have voice controlling disorder.
maybe they have not met for like few years laa. and when they tend to get the time to catch up things,and that too,in the train,they will speak as loud as possible. no joke,man. sighs.
personally,i feel so annoyed. its not a good start for the day. PLEASE !
okayy2. im frustrated alr thinking abt that situation. ergh ! so,enough abt that.
love is out with his class. they went to marina. hmms.
i miss him.i miss him.i miss him. i've started planning for his bday alr. haha ! wee~
till then. tadas ! (:

2008-11-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

oh no. have been neglecting my blog. again. sighs.
been rather busy with tak tau aperr. hahs! birthday celebration maybe ? 3 days in a row okay! haha.
nahh. im not boasting. haha!
oh yes. birthday pics ! too much ! and time doesnt permits now. so, some other day will be fine. promise ! therefore,birthday stories will be blogged on another day. hmms.
having muscle cramps. T.T didnt slept last night. sighs.
to past time,i read my book and played the PSP. haha.
stayed up till Love went to school. arulaa bole tido. and that was around.. ermm.. 8.30am ?
i suppose. i feel like eating DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER. please ?? T.T
i aint craving okayy. just feel like eating. hmm.
Love is still at school supporting his 'HOT STUFF' fren in the basketball match.
i suppose we'll be meeting on Saturday ,right love ?
having to wait for a week for our next meeting each time after we met,
i must say, is a great perseverance seyy. T.T
nevertheless,our love remains strong. alhamdulillah.
insyallah,everything will turn out fine for us,Love. hmmm.
till then,GOODBYE !

p.s i miss you,Hazwan.

2008-11-14T14:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !
*jumps around*

will be meeting Hazwan Love at his school today. yay ! meaning this will be an only short post. haha! more updates on sunday okayy. (:
till then,Loves !

2008-11-10T20:17:00.000+08:00

holla there ! (:

first of all. FOUR more days to go ! wee~ haha!
went back to RSS to collect my cert & testi (finally!) with darling Angel.
thanks much,babe. oh yes! i was damned shock when i went into the GO. the admin staff actually remembered me + my full name. haha!
oh yes. i hate that disgusting guard. eeewwww!
went to Lot 1 with Aida for lunch and know what..
she treated me PIZZA HUT for the advance birthday present. THANK YOU! (: we had super-lots of fun;cathing up on the past. updating her on the latest news & such. haha!

the baked pasta is hers. & spaghetti is mine ! (:

we made a few rounds around Lot 1 and went home . saw kakNa on the way back. haha. thanks for today,Aida ! (:

went to Pulau Ubin with Love,sis and bro-in-law. we very semangat u know! haha! check out the pics. *wink*

honeymoon di Pulau Ubin? haha!

i swear. there's LOTS of mosquitoes. T.T

ran out of water and decided to stop here. (:

Love and aunty,the drink-seller. (:

i love Him. (:

i had loads of fun though it was super tiring . i seriously love yesterday. credits to Hazwan Love. and yeah. that's all. im out ! (:

i love you,Hazwan!

2008-11-05T18:10:00.000+08:00

NINE more days to go ! and i'll soon turn sevenTEEN ! *jumps around* (:
finally.. phew!

labrador trip.

2008-11-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

hello there ! (:

heavy rain;current weather. and im liking it ! went to labrador with family yesterday. bro-in-law wanted to try fishing there. hmms. (no luck though. haha!) reached there, picked a spot and tried to settle down. THEN ! i told mum that the mosquitoes are attacking me(since im the only one wearing black). oh crap ! pity the family have to find another spot. haha! we then sat under a shelter. oh yes! cam-whoring time. sis's idea huh. haha! she got the cameras ready. and off we set finding good spots leaving mum and dad with the kids and bro-in-law setting up his fishing tools. haha! check thiis out! (:

was admiring the breeze and the scenery when sis said,'adek ! tengok blakang.'. haha! oh yes, the "flying" dress explains the wind. (:

ME . (:

okayy2. i know . VAIN right ?.. haha !

euww! and we saw this while trying to find a good spot to take our pics. a colony of ants carrying a small part of a prawn . pfft!

me and bro-in-law (:

cheeky ! *wink*

honestly. i had a hard time climbing on that rock due to the dress . T.T

and this ! my first 'SINGLE ALBUM'. haha! feeling seyy. pfft! i repeat,it was sis's idea.

that's all for the gambars. haha ! we went to vivo after that. usual hang around with the cousins,uncles & aunties.. was about to go home when suddenly.. GASTRIC strikes.. again! i wept silently throughout the way home . cried silently. till it was already nearing 6am. pain has reduced and off i went to sleep. sighs.

HAZWAN. i miss you .
tadas ! (:

2008-10-31T19:27:00.000+08:00

Happy belated 8th monthsary, Hazwan ! the past 3 years of knowing you never seems enough . and yes, i look forward towards a great future with you, Love ! (: a simple yet sweet post for you,my Love. i LOVE you much much !! *sealed with a kiss*

2008-10-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

holla there !
guess i'll be spending the whole day at home . no plans . sighs . Love is out with his classmates at Sentosa . hmms . i suppose we won't be meeting much from now . Right,love ? i dun wish to be the cause of any problems anymore . i'm sorry for the mistake done, dear . belom sempat kita menikmati kebahagiaan, dugaan telah pun tiba . I'd never ask for this . but i believe the strength of our love will overcome this hardship . the hurdles of our love-life . i love you, Hazwan . till then, goodbye !

This picture of him,never fails to make me smile . pfft ! (:

and yet another hardshiip..

2008-10-26T04:58:00.001+08:00

oh yes. have been neglecting my blog lately . been quite busy . met BF today(finally)and went shopping at vivo . yea,to cut it short . enjoyed the day much. Thanks,Love ! (: i'll update more when time permits . nights ! (:

silence.

2008-10-22T14:06:00.000+08:00

In this silence i suffered. enduring this pain and deceiving myself . Life was never fair .
Looked forward to a future that seems so close to perfect yet predictions can't be made.
I'd never wish for this to happen . Till when ? should i stop lying to myself or shall i say this should go on for good ? i know HE is the one . everything seems to be going on very well and so fine. Like HE have said. but it takes two hands to clap . that was only on HIS part. what about me . i would nod my head even when my heart disagree . smile even when i'm sad . i didn't mean to deceive myself . but its all because i never wanna lose him . HIM . the Prince of my dream . the one who tried ways and means to make me smile . the one whom bring me up when i was down. the one i feel safe with . and yes,the one whom i've always LOVE. somethings are better left unsaid . i don't mind hurting myself if it means happiness for us. to my Lil angel up there,i hope ur listening to me. Do guide me through all hardships,will you ? you'll always be a part of me,baby. and, Hazwan Love, i'll always love you . To you, i belong.(:

Finally

2008-10-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah ! finally. i receive the following pictures from Yan. been waiting for so long ya. thanks much,boy ! check itt ! (:

the Geylang outing ! with Yan,Nieza,Kojang,Warra and Love. (:

The SENTOSA outing by NanaJap,YaNieza and JenNie.

Love,me,Nana and Jap. getting wet ! *wink*

YaNieza. NanaJap. JenNie.

haha. uploaded only that much. oh ya. Rainy. is the weather. Love is out Raya-ing with friends. will be going out with Nana for job hunting tomorrow. haha ! bring it on , babe ! (: ok-ok. chows !

17th Oct 2008

2008-10-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

BORED! current mood. pfft ! today seemed so plain. sighs.
and now. i dunnoe wad to type. i seem to be LOST. craps.

i miss you baby !

RAIN.

2008-10-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Rainy. was the weather. Tired yet Fun. was the day. went to follow Yan to a workplace his fren recommended at Toh Tuck. i woked up as early as possible since it was the first day. 5.30am. rise and shine. took a ride on Yan's bike and made our way to work . Job was super fun luhhs. easy job,aniway. Chey ! boasting huh ? haha! office sey ! great experience gained,i must say. my impression of office environment > arrogant people. ghost town . bla bla bla. but. things wasnt like what i'd pictured it would be. Friendly people offering us doughnuts, song sung by colleagues was heard in the office. thanks for the great welcome people! appreciiated. (: we did the pricing for the new edition of the Soccer trade cards. me and yan had super lots of fun. the job was rather sleepy to begin with. but we managed to change the situation. great job,Yanie and Yan. haha ! laughed. laughed.laughed. was the major thing done. haha! went down to the warehouse to check up some magazines. cool! macam-macam ada! haha! overall,enjoyed myself. thanks for the job,Yan. oh yes, craving for porridge at the moment. HAHA ! and wanting a new shirt. craps. phone bill;the load on my mind now. missing the person loved,Hazwan.

...

2008-10-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Work was fine today. new people;colleagues. my group,as usual, the first to finish.haha! need we say more?.. we did our job rather fast actually. cool! thumbs up,frens! (:

oh ya. CONGRATS to you,Faizal ! for your new job. Alhamdullilah. He has started to fantasize of buying a a car already. haha ! keje belom,angan2 lebih. haiyaa!
work ended early. but waited for the transport which came at 5.30. ergh !
went to LOT 1 to meet HONEY for dinner. while waiting,went to library to check out some books to borrow. but, luck wasn't on my side. without me knowing it, i still has an outstanding fine. so,no loan for me. *weep* HONEY reached soon after. as i told him earlier that im craving for LONG JOHN SILVER, we went there for dinner. (: then i accompanied him to do his homework in the library. from homework to DOTA-ing. sighs. there i was reading a book and there on the other side,he was DOTA-ing. hahs. oh ya ! while i was reading my book, suddenly HONEY called me,'Sayang..Sayang.. I Love You.' plus a kiss ! holy cow ! i was stunned. i swear. (:
God knows how much i appreciate that. Thanks ,Dear. (: we then met my mum at food culture.
i then send him to the mrt station. before that! took some pictures of him wearing a beanie! cute luhhs! i love ! (: check itt.. (spare the background. i know it wasnt a good spot. but couldnt help it. haha !)

Hazwan,love. now my loyalty will always be with you if you just promise me, that you'll stay real just like you are. Baby,you don't have to change. You don't know how much you mean to me,dear. never doubt this love,HONEY. much love from me! (:

nights ! (:

continued-ED

2008-10-15T01:15:00.000+08:00

i was busy with work lately. therefore,the late post. sigh. continued from the previous post like i promised. here goes the pix. hmms.
to start with,picture of us. (:

at Hajar's homiie. (:

Hazwan and Yanie . (:

them at Yew Tee MRT station. going to fadhli's house.

Holy cow ! look at hafriz's eyes. woo~

Hafriz and Kakna. (: ehem !

LOVE . (:

at Fadhli's homiie.

erm. head is cutt-ed off. credits to Fadhli's brother. well,thanks though. we then proceeded to Angel's house. we did LOTS and LOTS of catch up with her. i missed her. her aunts and uncles were there too.

i don't know what they're talking about. step 'kenyang' only. padahal, they are waiting for the chance to grab that last piece of pizza. at last, Syafiq got it. haha !

confirm,gossiping. right? caught red-handed ! boo !

the 'mintak kene sepak' face. haha ! no offence, HONEY. (:

Hazwan,love ! (:

YANIE . SYAVINA . AIDA .

alaamak ! not ready yett luhh. pfft !

ah-hah ! that's it. i miss you, babe. *wink*

and now. the perfect 'Lucky Seven' . yay !

angel and the guys. (:

fadhli.. ? where are you looking at ?

we had the 'mintak maaf' session with angel and proceeded to kaKna's house.
woah !

at kakNa's homiie. watched MTV's countdown from #20 till #1 seyy. Had fried noodles, lontong goreng and fried chicken there. *slurps* (:

last destination.. MY house ! (: & when they came to my house, this is what they did. pfft !
play PSP !

credits to dad. haha! he's standing on the chair while taking this picture for your info. haha !

Last but not least, random picture of us laa. ape lagii. (: check diis out,people !

at my homiie. (:

ermm. candid shot by kakNa.

at kakNa's homiie.

at angel's homiie.

so,that's all. to syafiq, curik laa segala gambar yang kau nak ye. haha ! and to love,sorry for sleeping late. i love you,Hazwan. (: past few days has been rather hard for us. im sorry for the mistakes. don't doubt my love. i believe we'll make it,HONEY. nights everyone !

RAYA outing !

2008-10-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

Boo ! im back home from jalan raya-ing with the 'Lucky Seven' (a name created by KUALI) phew! punyelaa penat. da lah pagi2 must wake up and all because of hafriz. sighs. we jumpe at cck interchange. waited for about..umm.. an hour?? for kakNa ! grrs. haha. no offence kakNa. (aru mintak maaf laa kan). hmm. ok-ok. lets cut it short yaw. first up is Hafriz's homiie. reached there, chit-chatted,makan the kueh, drink the air,salam mak die, dapat duet raya then belah. not really that long at his house sebab mak die nak kuar.

proceeded to Belle's homiie.reached Belle's homiie . and first thing that came out from my mouth was,'where's Hariz?' haha. i've not visited him since Belle gave birth so that explains it. haha ! we did a lot of catch up. here's the LADIES !

and the GUYS.

and not forgetting,HARIZ ! (:

ermm. the guys enjoying F1 'LIVE' race. nyaahaha!

alaamak ! it seems rather late already. there's work in the morning. T.T kul 6am nak angon seyy. so, let's just end it here. promise i'll continue again tmrw with more pix coming up. hahs. HONEY's rather mengamok already. he says, ' i tak suke u tido lambat2.besok nak angon pagi kan. go and finish wad ur doing faster and msg me when ur off to sleep.' sighs. he sounds angry. im sorry,HONEY. never my intention. loves ! (: i'll be back tmrw. nights !